Snapped

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

I don’t know what got into my sister today, but we’re not on speaking terms right now. I mean one minute her, Izzy and I are sitting around talking about Izzy’s wedding and my meeting with the publisher tomorrow and next thing I know she just goes off on me, right in front of the boys. Izzy was so taking back she was speechless.

After I kicked her out, I ran upstairs and started crying. How am I supposed to go though with this interview tomorrow when my own sister has filled my head with doubts? Sephiroth came in and just held me while I cried and the boys each drew me a picture and told me I was the best mom ever. It was nice to have their comfort around me, but it still hurt. I mean my own sister for crying out load.

I don’t know if there is something going on with her and Rude that she’s just not talking about or if it has something to do with our dad’s health. I mean I worried about him to, but the doctors are saying that a quick surgery will fix him right up and all he’ll have to do is go in ever few months for a check up. It’s not even as bad as it could be, so yes I’m worried, but I’m not going off on people.

I just wish she would tell us what’s going on instead of hurting people like that. I know she’s never been one to open up about her problems and her feelings; I’m like that too. But I found other ways to deal with it, why do you think I play video games? But Aranel… I just don’t know what to do? I guess for not just not talk to her for a while, let her cool down or whatever. Maybe she’ll let Izzy know what’s going on.

Until then I should worry more about tomorrow. Marluxia seems like he really likes my stories, but that may not mean anything. And if this doesn’t go well who knows what my darling sister will snap at me for next. I so need this to go well. I cannot have my mother and sister gaining up on me again. Well maybe Aranel more than my mom, but still it’s not like I don’t have enough on my hands with three kids and another on the way, plus Sephy to deal with. My life is a full time job without a “real” job added onto it.